derelict carousel, thoughts in motion blur
a ride I can’t escape, dreading every lurch
warbling out of tune
imagined memories, conscious silhouette
haunted like a ghost, shadowed empty bed
whisper’s grating scream
of all the secrets I’ve had to keep
the hardest were from myself
like why am I lying awake trying to remember
10 things I miss about sleep?
eyes like a sandy beach, waiting for a wave
that will never come, startled waking heart
fight or fly away
of all the secrets I’ve had to keep
the hardest were from myself
like why am I lying awake trying to remember
10 things I miss about sleep?
Every pain
Every symptom
Drives my compulsion
Spiralling
Angina
Or anxiety
Self diagnosis
Numb the pain, but not the fear
With each test
That comes back negative
I get more terrified
Well, am I dying, or not?
someone once claimed I only loved you
because I thought that I was supposed to
but from the time I saw your face
held your hand, felt your embrace
I knew a feeling, a something more
a priceless truth not felt before
a friend I can’t replace, my favourite shadow
loving all the same things, sharing all you know
graceful, fierce, blue eyes in bloom
the smartest girl in any room
a crushing blow to a rocky heart
never too old for a brand new start
my mirror image, improved, refined
the purest laughter, curious and kind
an awakened faith in something new
freshly opened eyes, beautiful and true
and though some days I wanna scream
I’m never as angry as I seem
cause I know a feeling, a something more
a priceless truth not felt before
a crushing blow to a rocky heart
never too old for a brand new start
my mirror image, improved, refined
the purest laughter, curious and kind
Deafcult's first EP/Demo shows their roots in a way that combines crushing guitars and subdued vocals but without the cliches often found in other shoegazer bands. isn't
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impossible to tire of this endlessly brilliant and beautiful album. thanks guys!! can't wait for a reprint of the t-shirts, definitely need one here! bensonbear